It is kind of funny that this video came up. I have always
believed in fear being similar to stress in certain situations. Your body gets
shaky, your hands sweat, your heart pounds, and you even get a little bit of
nausea sometimes. Through fighting in MMA for 2 years I learned that it is your
bodies way of responding to a situation your brain realizes its going to go
through. You use it to your advantage and so many things can happen. In a life
or death situation your body responds like that, for example, when I was in my
car accident I was hit in my ford ranger by a car going 70 mph when I was at a
dead stop. I saw the car only a second before the impact and felt immediately
my stomach drop. I had my girlfriend at the time in the middle and my best
friend in the passenger seat. We were shot up in the air and everything slowed
down dramatically. Almost like you see in the movies. It was the last thing I
remember and it was my response to making sure I was going to get out of this.
In the time we were in the air I had thrown my hand down to keep my girlfriend
in her seat and it somehow worked.
Right now I have a few conflicts in life. First off I am
fighting a sinus infection. Have been for about 5 days and I really hate going
to the doctor. I take really good care of my body and I hate when I am sick so
much it stresses me out because I am always needing to do something. Right now
it is focus on school and continue my fitness training. I have trouble with
both when I am sick. Another conflict is seeing someone I have cared about for
a long time beating herself up for things that are out of her control. She gets
down on herself so much that she doesn’t eat. She doesn’t take care of herself
almost like she doesn’t care for herself. Which she should because she is a
good person. I don’t like seeing those I care about and see great things in
become so depressed with themselves that they cant even get out of bed. I have
never had that situation so its hard for me to understand. The last conflict I
am having right now is the conflict of not being able to work out. I absolutely
love working out and it makes me feel fantastic and anytime I cannot work out
for a while it just makes me stressed and I hate it. I have been sick and its
best not to workout so your body has the energy and strenghth to fight off the
infection. It is something else to just not be able to do what you love
everyday because of little things like this.
Im sure my sinuses would say that’s what you get for living
in Missouri. So deal with it. I believe the person I care about would just say
I don’t understand how she feels and never will. Which she is probably right. I
wish I could understand. She has been through a lot and I know that. I just
wish she would be happy. Working out will come again. The day I will get to is
going to be fantastic. I will be so happy. I will push really hard to make sure
I can get back on track for training season. I miss squats, deadlifts, and bench.
I know they miss me as well
What I do realize though is with this sickness I will be
grateful for feeling normal again. Sicknesses happen even when you do take good
care of yourself. Its unfortunate but its life. There are things that are out
of my control and that is what is going on with this specific person. I will
not be able to influence her on how to think. I have tried numerous times and I
hope she is happy in the end. I am only human. Things happen in life all the
time that aren’t good then some are really good. Sometimes you have to fight
the bad days to have some of the best days of your life. For example this cold
right now. After I am over this I will be able to work out and continue on with
the life I am loving right now. I love life currently and am ready to get back
in it.
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